I struggle to update as she plays on the floor near my feet not knowing if this post will ever be published.  Knowing for certain that any little bit of...... silence is worth gold.  This is my life.  This is what I am or what I've become.  To say it has been hard is a lie, it has been much more than that.  Yet here we are at hopefully the brink of renewal, seizing the few precious moments of sanity we have.  Savoring every bit of life.  Reaching for normalcy..  if that is the word for it.